This morning when I woke up I had a strange sense of melancholic “knowing”, and the feeling that I was on the precipice of some significant event in my life. I thought of the upcoming eclipse and the Dragon Awakening it would supposedly bring about (see Dragon Awakening & Eclipses) and then suddenly thought of an obscure little book I had purchased some years ago but still haven’t read, called Dragontime, as I realised I was actually entering my own “Dragon Time” again, and that this time would be my last. Before I go any further, here’s some info about the book from a website called “Dragon Energy” http://www.draken-energie.nl.
This is about the power of a woman’s blood. It’s based on the book of Luisa Francia: “Drachenzeit”, also translated in English by Sasha Daucus and illustrations by Susun Weed: “Dragontime”
“The dragon symbolizes the collective power of menstruating women, a power which we can consciously direct to the healing of ourselves and others, a power which helps us align ourselves with the natural changes of our planet. Now is the time for Dragontime.” (Mary Greer, author, teacher)
Dragons are part of the magic, like elves and other elementals. The flames of the dragon are pure love. Dragons like to sweep their tails and set everything upside down: they make a safe, relaxed and balanced space in mankind’s narrow mind-set of reality.
Dragons are connected to magic and mystery – and so are women during menses.
Dragons just want to be understood. They have been misunderstood for such a long, long time… All that people saw of them was there destructive side, but dragons can be very constructive. Women have not been allowed to be mysterious during the time of the patriarchal and the masculine energy. Nowadays, the feminine/masculine energies are coming into balance, so these days open us up for a lot of old things to be released and understood. We may discover our feminine energy again, we may discover ourselves, we may discover our own dragon-power. It’s DRAGONTIME!
As I said, I purchased this book ages ago from a local secondhand bookshop, along with a couple of other books about magic which were all in a heap together (including a good quality copy of the revised edition Raymond Buckland’s Complete Book of Witchcraft or “Big Blue” – a lucky find!). Once I got the books home and looked at Dragontime more carefully I realised that it was not really a book about dragons, in the sense that I thought when originally purchasing it, so I put it away and still haven’t actually read it. For some reason I thought of this book this morning and decided I should pull it out of my bookshelf and leave it on my bedside table where I’d see it and remember to read it some time soon.
Only time will tell of course if my weird mood is at all precognizant – it’s been 6 months since my last menstrual period, and prior to that was a 4 month break – menopause is well and truly kicking in. Except for those times when I was actively trying to conceive a child I’ve always felt that menstruation has been an unnecessary inconvenience and often a source of pain which I would be much happier not having to endure, but now it’s coming to an end I suddenly feel a strange sense of loss and mourning. Maybe it’s just hormones screwing around with my brain, but something about this morning felt very special – like an ending, yet at the same time a rebirth into a new phase of my life – which I guess is appropriate given the eclipse and the new moon is a time for endings and new beginnings …Cronehood approaches!
I realised the synchronicity of the situation after I flicked through my copy of Dragontime and found this section on “New Moon Menstruation”…
The new moon is the hidden moon, the dark and mysterious power of the deep. The new moon is the pull inwards. The void sucks energy in and, at the same time, gives all power. During this time, anxieties, memories and experiences may rise up, eager to be dealt with. Midnight: darkness at its fullest, a velvet ocean, watery womb of life, the moon is new. The moon breathes in; the belly breathes out.
The energy of new moon bleeding is inwards, self-nourishing, into the cauldron of the woman, the belly, the witches’ cauldron, the holy grail. New moon menstruation is a strong time of healing and its element is water. It’s a good time to take stock, to read old diaries, to look through old photo albums, and to draw conclusions from them. What is built up on the full moon is dissolved on the new moon; that includes binding and releasing spells.
The animal of the new moon menstruation is the toad, with all her knowledge, her slipperiness, her ability to be quite alone, and her untouchable (poisonous) exterior. The goddess of this time is Hecate, the woman at the joining of three roads [also called tri-via], the guardian of mysteries and knowledge, the reaper, the dark one, the crone.
Tonight I also attended our Dark Moon Circle, where the ritual we performed involved inner exploration and what was essentially an initiation and dedication to our own Dragons, which also ties in with the energies of this Dark Moon and Solar Eclipse. With the eclipse taking place in Cancer, which is in the 3rd house of my natal chart, the main issues for me to deal with involve: communications, early childhood, early education, immediate environment, learning, mental activity, mental aptitudes, short journeys and siblings. Because this eclipse is on the Dragon’s Tail, it will involve moving from the issues just listed and moving into those of the 9th house (the Dragon’s Head in my chart) which are: awareness, expanded horizons, foreign countries, higher learning, higher mind, journeys, law, mental exploration, philosophy, publishing, religion, travel and quests.
I have no planets in the 3rd house, and the only planet in my 9th house is Venus…
Venus represents the part of you that seeks love, harmony and appreciation of beauty. It represents your aesthetic values; what you cherish; your taste in colours, shape and sound (what you love); and in relationships (who you love). If you fail to recognize and express your own sense of values, than you may lack serenity and sincerity, and become self-indulgent, overly passive, and overly fond of luxury and comfort. The Sign and the House position of your Venus describes the process you go through to find the things and the people you love; where your love and appreciation comes from; and the context of what life experiences you find it. Here you seek comfort and harmony.
…and some information about the eclipse…
This is a time of letting go of old emotional habit patterns and letting go of the people that you have become dependent on. A Solar eclipse is about planting new seeds, new projects and reaching out for new experiences. Solar Eclipses tend to relate to sudden events that disrupt our day-to-day functioning; they are the crisis that seems to come out of nowhere and that suddenly demand all of our conscious attention and focus. They tend to stir things up on a physical and conscious level much more than Lunar Eclipses.
All this information certainly rings true for me at the moment and the influence of Venus makes sense when applied to the other issues involved. There are many things and habits I do need to let go of to be able to start afresh in various areas of my life to enable me to bring a sense of order and harmony to my life and those closest to me. Even the oracle card drawn for our group early this morning ties in with the current cosmic energies and sums this up nicely…
Card drawn from the The Animal Guides of Avalon Oracle ~ The Frog says that it’s time to clean house and get rid of the clutter in your environment, your head, and your heart. Move out any objects, thoughts, or relationships that hold you back. It’s time to get rid of anything that clutters your life or your space with unwanted burdensome energy, or anything that weighs heavily on your heart.
Look around you and take stock of what surrounds you. Does what you see hold positive and supportive energy? If not, it’s time to throw it away and release it so that it, in turn, will release you from its influence. When the Frog appears, it’s always spring and time for cleaning your house so you can allow new and fresh energy to enter your world.
The Frog says, “It’s time to release all things no longer appropriate to bring on your journey. Then you can hop to the next lily pad, light and free.”
In my meditation tonight I met a large black dragon who’s never actually come to me before. He told me his name, which I cannot tell anyone, apart from the abbreviation of “Stan”. 😀 He looked very much like a dragon in an artwork I’ve seen online many times, so that’s the one I’ve included below.
He walked the circle with me and confirmed that I am to follow my current path and see where it takes me. Later on, as the group gathered around the central altar after walking the circle in meditation, I felt a large pair of wings sprout from my own back and protectively encircle the rest of the people in the group. It felt quite natural for me to have wings, and it’s not the first time it’s happened. It was a very strange night in many ways, and as always the Dragons knew who they wanted to attend and who was perhaps not yet ready for this initiation. A couple of regular Dark Moon members were not able to come (and had missed a previous significant Dragon attunement in January this year as well), and somebody else who had left our Dark Moon group some time ago turned up unexpectedly, late at night while the ritual was in progress, and was allowed to enter the circle and take part in the ritual. It will be interesting to see how this all unfolds. The night’s proceedings also lasted much longer than usual and we finally left after midnight.
So many odd little synchronicities are thrown together here; toads and frogs, even the oracle card I drew at circle tonight – The Water Fairy (feelings and emotions) – all connect within a bigger picture of what is unfolding for me at the moment. I definitely feel like I’m on he brink of something big in my life. If it is the ‘official’ onset of becoming a Crone, I’m grateful to have had this opportunity to reflect upon it in a spiritual sense, making it something special, rather than just seeing it as the cessation of a particular bodily function.
Well, it’s after 3am and I’ve stayed up far too late to write this, but I felt too “hyped up” after the ritual tonight to go to bed straight away. No doubt I’ll pay for this lost sleep tomorrow (er… later today). Goodnight all. 😀